DREWspective

The ending to Metal Gear Solid 3 really got to me, and I hadn’t been able to forget it since. I will try not to spoil it for anyone who hasn’t seen it.

Sometimes someone comes into your life and makes a giant impact, the likes of which you’ve never felt before. Maybe it’s a best friend, a partner or just a stranger. But then something happens, and ultimately you’re no longer able to maintain the relationship. Somehow, you have to let go of that person.

Ladies and gentlemen, I had to make that decision at around 0120 today.

This person was someone who came out of the blue and shook my regenerating world, in good ways and bad. They did things for me that other people were far too scared to (mostly in fear of becoming a laughing stock). Even though things suddenly changed for their benefit and my loss, they were still there.

And I love them, which is why it’s so painful to let them go.

Have you ever loved somebody so much that you held onto them as tightly as you could, even though it hurt? Have you loved them so much you cry whenever you think about them? Have you lost sleep thinking about the good times you’ve had, knowing those times are insignificant to them now, or—even worse—being had by them and someone else?

I had always lived in fear of being “whipped”, but inevitably it’s happened. And it hurts like hell. It hurts so bad, that after three months I’m still not over it. Ever since, my life has fallen apart.

I think there’s at least one time in everybody’s life where they get “whipped”, whether they get involved with that person or not. I’ll tell you something else too; it’s always easy to think that the other person is far better than you when it happens. Particularly when they have so many people rooting for them (and turning their backs on you).
But no matter what it takes, we have to let go of these people. We can’t waste valuable energy fighting against what is, no matter how differently we’d like things to have played out.

I hope nobody has to go through what I’ve been through several times in my life.

Self-help is big business these days. Every man and his dog seems to have a product that claims to cure your problems, all for a ridiculously high bargain price.
One thing has taken my notice recently: quite a few of these ‘gurus’, and some web sites, love to take the tough love approach. What’s tough love? Summed up briefly, it means talking down to the customer and showing little to no sympathy.

These are the people who got on a microphone, or a word processor, and went around saying:

"It’s not them; it’s you."

I kid you not; this was part of the intro to a so-called self-help tape I once downloaded, which thankfully I’ve forgotten.

Let’s take an example most people can relate to. On a couple of occasions I started to read Double Your Dating by David DeAngelo - you know, to help with the ‘curse’. In his ebooks and newsletter David visibly uses the tough love approach when helping some of the people out, but generally it’s all in good fun.

What has always gotten me stuck was in the first part, where he writes in no uncertain terms:

"If you’re one of those people that likes being negative, arguing with everything, finding why things can never work for you, and why everyone is wrong, then do me and you a favor and delete this book from your hard drive, and email me to ask for a refund. You’ve made a choice to be negative with yourself, and I’m not even interested in helping you see a better way."

How is someone who has problems seeing things in a positive light supposed to react to that?

As someone who has been accused of being negative (and admittedly, when 10 to 20 things go tits up in a row, it kinda pisses me off) and doesn’t enjoy being negative at all, I felt a strong urge to give David two words. But I really did feel really bad. So what did I do? I stopped reading, worrying I would never be able to ‘double my dating’ (which is useless if your dating is zero) unless I escaped the trap of negative thinking. And I’ve been trying to escape the trap of negative thinking for over ten years.

The point I’m trying to make here is that tough love should never be used as an all-purpose tool. It does work for some people, but there’s a good chance it will devastate others and put them in a far worse position than before.
Alicia Fortenberry and Bob Murray, a psychotherapy team, said that criticism is never a good thing because it’s a form of abuse; when someone criticises you they’re controlling you. Tough love is nothing but criticism: it’s used to highlight what is wrong, but gives no information on how to fix the problem.

Unfortunately there’s no real way to avoid it, but you can choose not to accept tough love treatment - if it’s counterproductive - by leaving. Don’t feel you have to accept abuse just because it’s from someone in a ‘better’ position than you.
The ultimate worst situation to receive it is from a supposed counsellor/psychologist. I hate to scare people, but it has happened.

I wanted to keep this post away from solely talking about relationships and dating, but it’s not easy.