Again, not much to report on the diet.
Stress levels have been creeping up, however, as people at work have decided to pile more on my plate. In their usual, “productive” style, they seem to have no idea what they’re doing. For the past couple of weeks, I’ve been building their company web site from scratch… days before they’d even had any content.
Anyhow, I wasn’t feeling very confident about my weight loss for this week. I’d only managed 5.5 lbs last week, when I wanted 7; it might be even less this week. To put things into perspective: lower weight loss means more time spent deprived of (or rather abstaining from) food.
Mulling over the general “counselling” received in the past few weeks, the idea seems to be: insist you are your worst and only enemy.
Phrases like “you’re making it harder on yourself”, “you have to be stronger”, “she has a right to cook what she wants” got thrown around. I don’t know about you, but I wouldn’t call that counselling. Actually, I would call that demotivating.
It’s been hard enough missing out on social events, opportunities and occasionally treats, because someone says you can’t have a single item of food. To have it thrown in your face and then “blamed” on you is unacceptable.
I sometimes doubt the people who run or create this diet have any idea how difficult it is.
I was sick to the point of collapse on the way to work. Luckily I had enough strength to mix a shake on the train, and instantly felt better once taking a swig. I guess it had something to do with only having two meals the previous day.
I tell you, it’s become increasingly difficult to manage four packs and four litres of water. It ain’t easy, particularly since there’s so long left.
Tags: diet, LighterLife, sick, stress, work