DREWspective

The ending to Metal Gear Solid 3 really got to me, and I hadn’t been able to forget it since. I will try not to spoil it for anyone who hasn’t seen it.

Sometimes someone comes into your life and makes a giant impact, the likes of which you’ve never felt before. Maybe it’s a best friend, a partner or just a stranger. But then something happens, and ultimately you’re no longer able to maintain the relationship. Somehow, you have to let go of that person.

Ladies and gentlemen, I had to make that decision at around 0120 today.

This person was someone who came out of the blue and shook my regenerating world, in good ways and bad. They did things for me that other people were far too scared to (mostly in fear of becoming a laughing stock). Even though things suddenly changed for their benefit and my loss, they were still there.

And I love them, which is why it’s so painful to let them go.

Have you ever loved somebody so much that you held onto them as tightly as you could, even though it hurt? Have you loved them so much you cry whenever you think about them? Have you lost sleep thinking about the good times you’ve had, knowing those times are insignificant to them now, or—even worse—being had by them and someone else?

I had always lived in fear of being “whipped”, but inevitably it’s happened. And it hurts like hell. It hurts so bad, that after three months I’m still not over it. Ever since, my life has fallen apart.

I think there’s at least one time in everybody’s life where they get “whipped”, whether they get involved with that person or not. I’ll tell you something else too; it’s always easy to think that the other person is far better than you when it happens. Particularly when they have so many people rooting for them (and turning their backs on you).
But no matter what it takes, we have to let go of these people. We can’t waste valuable energy fighting against what is, no matter how differently we’d like things to have played out.

I hope nobody has to go through what I’ve been through several times in my life.